Real Time External

What is different? What changed? Camouflage is intended to hide something not to be noticed.

I heard the term, compartmentalize. If it happens below the level consciousness in one's own mind, that person can be 'blind' to the consequential things that differ.

Loners are less able to see internal barriers of this type? It seems so, in my experience. Yet to think of something original, it may be better to get ahead of prudence...

Technologly was the key? Barriers of the internal kind too. Keep the gas pedal down even though the risk was great? On the outside, I could not have known what I needed to. Drama unfolded like a slinky, 11 years before the turn of the century.

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Yoga After ...

I have been saying it was Warrior and Bunny told me it was Mountain. Mind scramble. She helped me remember. Our instructor learned from the late B.K.S Iyengar (pictured) in Pune. He passed away last year - at 95

Yoga over time punctuated by the major plot twist. The primary event:

Do stupid fast. Then wake up slowly ... FOR THE FIRST TIME.

Wake up to the hiding part of the brain in oneself. I don't recommend a stroke to get there but it worked for me.

© 2013 Buzz Hill

Creative Space

Is there a trail in Forest Park I have not traveled? Perhaps not.

If the trees could record, I bet something of value would be stored there. Maybe stored but need a retrieval method?

If one aready exists, how does it work? In there a manual?

"Going 'inside' with the intention of finding these answers or clues to them is fascinating. A partial 'reality' in probable. Consistent with free will, so-to-speak."

© 2013 Buzz Hill

Volcano

I wasn’t paying much attention to ABSCAM. The corporation was just three years old. It was all about making the invention work. I heard the story on the news was about all.

Moving the company to just west of Portland was a big step. Closer to Tek. An ex-VP was a adviser to my board.

Imagine my reaction when Mt. St. Helens blew. I took it personally when I was felling doubt about my choices ... again. Such was the state of my vivid imagination.

© 2013 Buzz Hill

Know What This Means

“The message sent does not reach here by the time it could to be interpreted.” How can that be?

It could be an advanced form of tuning component in a cosmic receiver. Perhaps designed by a superior intelligence. Sent in a way that could be based on a time-based communication structure like our own.

"So far, it is a faint pattern. We are assuming our receive apparatus needs improvement and, as well, its connection to us."

Like a scent to a dog, guidance will likely soon occur. Time is not necessarily wasted by reasonably informed speculation. In fact, predictive value gets better with practice. "Nearby now going forward."

© 2015 Buzz Hill

Inland Empire

Invited to join the team in Spokane. Heady year: moon landing, Woodstock. New jock and newsman at the farm station for the legendary KJR, Seattle.

At 23, this was a big deal. From the time of our bootleg station in junior high, KOOL, I looked up to the radio stars. The folks that would spin records on what became of broadcast radio after TV began.

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Boxes of Tubes

Dad’s friend lived on the hill too. As I recall, he worked at the telephone company. He would bring boxes of surplus Tektronix tubes. That and cigarette smell made the daily trip to the ham shack feel great to this pre-teen boy. Dad and mom did not smoke but "Rich" sure did.

When my Dad and I visited his home to fix dad's KWM-1, I remember having a great time with a touch of shame. That monster would trouble me for a very long time.

© 2015 Buzz Hill

Cause From Effect

PostTraumatic Stress Disorder could explain a lot. On the other hand, classification in the DSM is not the point ...

To protect one from the disturbing events, human's minds have a 'strategy'. I say that because Behaviorists have been discredited (thank goodness). They may have called it behavior without wanting knowing why.

Dad was on the visiting faculty at the Medical school and into electronics. He was a ham (radio amatuer) and was influenced by Tektronix, the Portland start-up founded in 1946.

That was the year I was born.

© 2015 Buzz Hill

Play Not On Chessboard

Some folks believe in business “All is fair in love and war.” Best know this about your adversary.

Unfortunately, I did not adequately understand this at the time.

The stakes were high and I was not as cooperative the other side would have liked.

Who could I trust? I was not sure.

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Clueless Continued

About 160 acres right on one the Pacific ocean’s most beautiful coastlines. She wanted us to live out there, and it was not hard to convince me otherwise. I wanted to get out of town.

I did not know my nemesis had a vacation home there until after we had moved. She did not know either.

I had a romantic idea of writing my memoirs by escaping to the coast. Paranoia chasing me again, it must be said. What a bucolic place to do it though. View to a small ocean cove. She found it without knowing who he was,

© 2015 Buzz Hill

Complicated

The efficacy of the technology was trumped by the act of revenue fraud? Cooking the books.

Consider one of the most salient facts. No customer was using the product because, when shipped, it did not work correctly. Shipped, but not working as advertised.

Why would this mistake be made? The circumstances, definitely intentional. But would this have been the invention's demise?

Why would someone making a living off the company put in place obstacles to the only product's performance? A conflicting overriding agenda, perhaps.

© 2015 Buzz Hill

Law to Whom

Jurisdiction to class is variable. Sometimes less, sometimes more.

There could advantages to a new system making them less variable overall?

"The is no place in business for altruism." he said. He represented the growing power. My idea was, in affect, antagonistic to it.

My role in the emerging plan diminished even further.

© 2015 Buzz Hill